Why Doesn’t God Heal Me? Finding Purpose In The Pain

Why Doesn't God Heal Me

Why doesn’t God heal me? Actually, I had never even asked that question until an unfortunate Facebook post made me start thinking about it.

There was a meme going around that included a statement about healthcare. The statement, made at a prayer breakfast, was something along the lines of, “What we need isn’t more healthcare. What we need is more of Jesus in our lives,” something completely expected at an event like that. My son saw that post and it definitely did not go over well with him. He responded quite strongly to it, referencing my faith, my illness, and the fact that I haven’t been healed.

Over the years he has seen me deal with debilitating migraines, surgery for endometriosis, and a catheter ablation to “burn off” what was described as an extra electrical connection in my heart. Now he’s out on his own and although he doesn’t see the day-to-day issues with my fibromyalgia he knows enough about it to know it impacts the way I live each day. It’s easy to understand why he was offended by any suggestion that we don’t need healthcare, and his response made me start thinking about how people might view the relationship between faith and healing. That led to thinking about why God might have chosen not to heal me, whether supernaturally or through medical interventions (which to me is a miracle in itself.)

As I mentioned earlier, it wasn’t something I had previously thought about. My question was always, “Lord, what do You want to teach me through this?” I firmly believe He can use whatever we go through for good and I felt that there had to be some purpose for it. I just ask for grace and strength to get through each day.

I obviously don’t know what is going on in the mind of God, but I believe there could be a couple of reasons He has allowed this particular challenge.

First, maybe there were some things I needed to learn. I know this has definitely been a learning experience. Here are just some of the lessons:

  • God cares about everything in our lives. I can pray about even the simplest things and He will hear and answer me.
  • I don’t always have to be the strong one. It’s okay to let someone else carry part of the load.
  • It’s okay to ask for help. I used to hate to ask for help, but I’ve learned that not asking can rob those who love you of a blessing.
  • God’s grace is sufficient. On those days when I’m just a complete mess, He carries me through.
  • People will often surprise you. For a long time I was very guarded about letting anyone know I have fibromyalgia because of the negative experiences others have had, but I’ve learned I have some wonderfully loving, supportive people in my life.

Next, perhaps God is using my illness to help others. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 says, “Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.” (NIV) We are in a unique position to help others when we’ve been through something similar to what they’re going through. Fibromyalgia may have taken away some things, but it has certainly given me the ability to be empathetic and the desire to help others who are trying to find a way to live with their “new normal.”

Last but not least, God has helped me find my purpose in this next chapter of my life.  Ever since I retired from the military I’ve felt kind of…..I’m not sure exactly what…..I’ve just felt that I really haven’t done anything that really matters. I’ve kept busy – I went back to school and got my B.S. in Religion, got my certifications and worked as a Personal Trainer and Health Coach, and got my Life Coach certification – but I just didn’t feel I was making a difference. Now, sharing my story to help others know that they can have happy, fulfilling life even if they live with fibromyalgia or other chronic illnesses has given me a new sense of purpose.

I wouldn’t have chosen to have a chronic illness, but I’ve known from the very beginning that God would use it. Why doesn’t He heal me? I don’t know. What I do know is that not just in spite of, but because of this illness, I have an opportunity to speak hope and love into the lives of others. What could be better?

Blessings,

~Terri

 

43 comments

  1. I love this post so much Terri, you have put into words everything I believe in. I look at my life as a gift with lessons to learn, blessed with free will but yet still knowing I am watched over. I don’t expect God to ease my discomfort because I believe it was put there for a reason. I can’t say I’m enjoying it 🙄 but I accept it without blame 🌹

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  2. You never know how strong you are until strong is the only choice you have. I do believe that God only gives the strongest people the hardest battles to endure. There are times when I wonder myself as to why I have to suffer sciatic pains, deal with a herniated disc and learn to live with Barrett’s esophagus but i know that there are others out there that are worse off than me. We all have our battles, some big some small; they all teach us something whether we already know it or have yet to discover. Know that you are not alone. Sending my thoughts and prayers and positivity your way!

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  3. This was a beautiful post!! You did an amazing job putting into words how I do feel sometimes. It may sound bad but I have asked myself several times why is God doing this to me? I have also asked why won’t God cure me. I ask all those questions when I am in a lot of pain, but I know that God has his plans for me and I just need to live life the best I can!
    I hope your weekend is going well and you are feeling better!!!! Take care my dear!!

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  4. Thanks so much Alyssa! It’s easy to question why when things aren’t going well, and I believe God understands when we do, but when we’re able to step back and look at it from a “big picture” perspective we can understand that regardless of our circumstances He is at work. Hope you’re feeling better sweet friend!

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  5. Great post! 🙂 I have found myself here because I just happened to be looking at the partners list over at Dream Big and noticed you were there. It is so nice to cross paths with someone strong in their faith. Being in pain is obviously not an easy experience and like you, I believe there is a silver lining in everything through God and in your case, it is clear to me that God is using you in the best way possible. ❤ When I go through trying times or feel likes things are becoming too much I always like to visit this bible verse for support –

    Romans 8:18 For “For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.”

    So glad to have crossed paths with you and I look forward to reading more 🙂

    God Bless ❤

    Cavelle

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  6. I have pondered this very same thing. I felt like I was supposed to learn humility, patience and compassion so I can give it to others. I also believe He was trying to bring me closer so that I would seek comfort in Him.. Blessings 😊✌

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  7. Hi Terri. I think this is a valid question for someone going though what you are going through.

    A few years ago, I felt a little guilty asking “Why” questions to God.. But I eventually realized that the prophets and his disciples were open about how they felt for the most part may it be joy, sorrow, or anger.

    I believe we can be open to God with the difficult questions as He knows what’s in our hearts. We might not understand everything, but as you say, there might be some lessons or particular reasons why things are the way they are.

    You are so strong as a person, and much more stronger in your faith. It’s so inspiring to see your journey. Thank you for sharing it with all of us. (Hug)

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words Liz! I also believe that we can go to God with any of our emotions. He already knows what’s in our hearts, so there’s no need to try to hide what we’re feeling. Thanks for thinking I’m strong, but I sure don’t feel that way most of the time. What I do know is that my God IS strong, and when I’m weak He’ll carry me through. Hugs to you sweet friend!

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  8. Beautifully written, Terri. I think that those of us in our chronic club really are tested for strength and stamina on a daily basis, no matter our faith, religion, creed or culture. It is tough and sometimes those nagging internal voices drown everything else. But the very fact that we are here, writing and reaching out to both our spoonie community & others must show a cast iron strength, faith and will – although my hubby would say I’m just bloody minded. Have a lovely day, with hugs from your chronic friend! x

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    1. Thank you so much Claire! We are definitely all tested on a daily basis. You’re also absolutely right about those internal voices, and in fact, I just fought that battle Wednesday. It’s wonderful to have such an amazing community of people to connect with when those voices seem too strong. Hugs to you as well!

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  9. I can completely relate this post! I am currently battling cancer. I actually did a positive post about it. It’s reconnected me with my oldest child and as a friend said, “it will bring you closer to God” and she was right. I don’t know the reason I am meant to fight this battle, but I trust in God’s journey for me and I will just have to see where it leads. Stay strong. We may not know what His plan is, but there is a plan!

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    1. It’s amazing how many good things can come from hard experiences/situations. I’m glad to hear some positive things have come from the battle you’re fighting right now. I know it can’t be easy, but you seem have a positive attitude and strong faith. “Be strong and courageous…. for the Lord your God goes with you.” Thanks for following. I look forward to getting to know you.

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