FOREWORD: As part of my HOPE plan, I choose to meditate on Scripture each day. I thought I might share some of my musings with you from time to time. I will never try to force my beliefs on anyone else, but my faith is as much a part of me as breathing, and it definitely helps me in my quest to live well with this cluster of symptoms we call fibromyalgia.
Just wanted to give you a heads up in case you would rather not read these particular posts…. If you’re still with me, here goes…..
“So how’s that optimism thing working out for you?” I could almost hear Satan sneer as I sat there with tears streaming down my face, feeling utterly devastated. There wasn’t any big event that precipitated this; just one little thing piled on another over the last couple of months in addition to the unrelenting pain and fatigue that are part of my daily life with fibromyalgia. Add to this my feelings of guilt for feeling sorry for myself when there are others who have it so much worse, and I was just a hot mess.
Discouragement is trying to take hold of me right now, and it would be so easy to just go back to doing nothing, but now that I’ve started this journey back to a life well-lived, I have to press on. In the past, when I’ve been through these “trials by fire” it has always been when I was moving forward in my spiritual journey and toward the purpose for which I was created. I’d always say, “God’s cooking me – I’m not done enough yet to do whatever it is He wants me to do.” Right now I have to wonder if God is preparing me for something new or if the enemy is trying to dissuade me from moving forward. Either way, it’s time to fight; fight for what God wants for me or against satan’s attempts to stop me. It’s time to put on my armor!
In the book of Ephesians, Paul outlines the armor God has given us to fight our spiritual battles, but even if this battle isn’t spiritual, I could sure use that armor:
The Belt of Truth – The truth is that God loves me, I’m important to Him, and He’s blessed me with the opportunity to live well in spite of my fibromyalgia and hopefully, help others by sharing my journey.
The Breastplate of Righteousness – This was a gift from Jesus. He made me righteous before God when He died for my sins. It protects my heart, helps me to be honest and trustworthy, and to live with integrity.
Shoes of Readiness – I am responsible for preparing for the next step so that I’m ready to move forward into what God has planned for me.
The Shield of Faith – My faith is what sustains me through the pain, through the fog, through the heartache. When I am at my lowest point, I remember what God has brought me through in the past and know that He will bring me through again.
The Helmet of Salvation – This is another gift from Jesus – living with an eternal perspective can help protect me from discouragement and despair.
The Sword of the Spirit – I have God’s Word to guide me. Rather than letting my feelings determine my path I need to read my “battle plan” and proceed accordingly.
I’m dressed for battle and ready to go. How about you?